I better Kuckle down

I thought it was about time i entered the world of the living. I've been in hiding, not knowing exactly what to say about whats been going on in my life.

Things have been progressing, s-l-o-w-l-y. I've been getting communications - - emails & texts that have been extremely meaningful to me lately. I cant express how much it soothes me, so thank you.

Anyway, onto my rant. I have always wondered why, why people deny the intensity of weight and appearance in this culture. We all know that being fat is horrible - - practically a sin. I know because just the other day i was told i was too fat for something. It hurt, but at this age, given I've been heavy all my life it didn't phase me. It did, however, make me think. I'm constantly running up against people who think that EVERYONE suffers from body image issues. Now, i would NEVER deny that fact but its a little more magnified when your skinny but see you're self as fat and when you're actually over weight. It's like everyone suffers in life from the constrictions of race and gender, but its a little more magnified when you are...oh..lets say a person of color...or a woman...or a queer identified person...or a lesbian...or a gay man...or a bi-sexual...fluid...trans and so on! This yr i have become increasingly more comfortable with my body. I wore shorts for two days in a row. I've been wearing strapless dresses. I've been accessorizing like no one business. I am coming into my own...i think. Feels good.

one more strange, but liberating thing, somehow this summer i've become a lover of cooking and cleaning my house. am ia housewive? the real housewives & queers of NH? sounds like a winner. take it bravo - take it!