I went to a random cemetery yesterday. Olive and i were walking around, looking at the grave stones. And then i realized where i was and my eyes began to well-up. I have no been to my grandmother, grandfather, cousin, or friends grave since any of them died. My friend being dead only like 2 weeks now and i completely avoided the funeral and such.

i was so moved just standing on that ground. i have always thought cemetaries were beautiful, misunderstood places.

Mandy: Jr's, Cliffs, Mine, and Ours.?

Mandy Winger is CERTAINLY one of my favorite Dallas characters. Not only does she up the level of disgust Sue ellen has for JR (which mind you is the healthiest thing for her)  or that Mandy is also the name of my fav person EVER (Mandy Moore) - she also lasts, and so you are able to identify her as a secondary character. 

Mandy starts out as an alibi for cliff - to prove he didn't shoot and blind bobby (people i tell you, this show is amazing.) this is like the millionth time bobby's been shot because of JR's dirty deals and a long list of enemies. She tries to be Cliffs gf for a while until she slowly begins to realize that he is verbally and emotionally abusive, self centered, arrogant, obsessive prick. All he does and can care about is beating JR, himself, and making his dead daddy proud? uhh, ok Cliff.  So Mandy moves onto JR - which i cant say is any better since i am SURE that character of JR is meant to be a sociopath. He has no clear identifiable emotions and he also has only one mission: Making Ewing Oil the best and keeping it that way. Women come and go, they do not seem to phase him much. His character is definitely built on the misogynist principle that all women are there for you, all the time, to do whatever you like. So when he gets sick of Sue ellen, or rather sue ellen figures out he fucking around on her and stands her ground, he just moves on, picks another.

Part of what fascinates me so much about the show is that it sticks with itself. It doesn't back down - of course they give EVERY character a 3d moment, or some fourth dimension of being. But they do NOT negate facts. For example, in Season 8 they show some softer parts of JR, i do believe he was in love with Mandy. And so we began to see him being a little more open, ACTUALLY looking what could be describe as hurt, or maybe just caught off guard by the random flaring up on emotions. But they never cease to keep JR as he is: the biggest ass hole in the universe. EVER.

I LOVE Dallas and im into converts. I think its the smartest show I've ever seen, and so id like to discuss it with smart ppl (aka all my friends). So i think ill keep track of episodes from now on. I may start with season 3 and need to do a little background, but anything possible in.....Texas? ha. ya, the show is set in RICH Texas. They have a maid named Theresa and a butler named Raul. everything about it is just so deliberate and telling.